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Second Self

by drowse

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Mini-LP commissioned for The Flenser Membership Series One.

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released September 20, 2019

Written and recorded by Kyle Bates at Studio Kura artist residency in Itoshima, Japan in December 2018 and at home in NE Portland from January to May 2019.

“Sudo Beast” and “Open, Alone” were also written, sung, dreamt and vocally self-recorded by Lane Shi Otayonii in March 2019.

The song “Second Self” was originally composed as the audio component to the art installation Second Self.

Fog Storm instruments built in collaboration with Jesse Keating were played on “Sudo Beast” and “Open, Alone.”

Cover artwork by Lane Shi Otayonii.

Mastered by Nicholas Wilbur at the Unknown in May 2019.

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Track Name: Drowse & Otay:onii - Sudo Beast
Finding the beast
Find the line to be
I find it hard to see

Fighting with that beast
Fighting on the line with thee
I found it hard to be
hard to believe

Holding the beast
Stepping into thee
I found it hard to see
hard to speak

It’s landing it’s landing
It’s landing it’s lining
I am late but anyway

It’s landing but anyway it’s a dream

It’s a dream but it’s played in many ways

No goodbye with your (Lovers)

Some carried the smile from your friends

Through the black hole I found my way

come find me
in a coffin
lying with that beast
Track Name: Weak, Sleeping
So now it’s gone,
I drank too much again.
You were the sky
I can’t stop sleeping in.

You won’t say a thing
or show me your pain,
because that would be weak
and you want to be strong.

Sometimes I drink it all,
and drive with blurry eyes at night,
hoping to change my life,
to forget your moonlight.

I should’ve shown everything,
couldn’t give what you need,
because I’ve always been weak,
and you deserve to be strong.

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