soon asleep

by drowse

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1.
melt 05:30
above the clouds carved out by black wires snow melts beneath my feet garbage heap across the river we quietly breathe in my bedroom waking from a dream mind circles again morning yawns a birdsong pill melts beneath my tongue i sigh slowly being buried calm white haze my body melts away
2.
meaning 04:08
we all grow to doubt at times slowly fall apart unwind becoming undone to find we all feign life sometimes to wait, to hope it’s hopeless been broken for a while to make my life meaningful after realizing the meaninglessness of life absurd condition—aesthetic person
3.
(you) 03:53
4.
awake 05:54
pick me up on mount tabor city mirrored in the water getting darker the liquid in our glass spin around ‘till lights are silent as i grow older i will erase myself i’ll drink your wine can you tell me the difference between living and a dream? what does it look like— been living in a dream when bodies almost double and i’m almost somebody and i can feel that something slipping from my chest can you tell me the difference between living and a dream? what does it taste like? been living in a dream when colors lose their sway and shapes lose their color and i can’t smell the bile dripping from my throat i’ll know i’m awake
5.
something 05:46
feeling faint around others hoping I’m just another on my own: self imposed bitter teeth, aching gums open mouth, spoiled tongue breathing’s hard when you’re young “i used to be something living’s turned me into nothing” i once had something now empty feel nothing “are you afraid of death? yeah. me too. there’s no way out of it. you’re going to die. i’m going to die. it’s going to happen. what difference does it make if it’s tomorrow or in eighty years? much sooner in your case. do you know how fast time goes? i was six like yesterday. me too. we’re going to die. you are going to die. what else is there to be afraid of?” i used to feel something leaving’s turned me into nothing i am empty. i am nothing.
6.
returning 04:06
regret repress regret repress regret repress regret

credits

released June 9, 2015

Written and recorded by Kyle Bates from late May 2014 to early March 2015 in a closet room and a moldy basement in NE Portland.

Tuesday Faust sang on “melt” and “awake”.

Alec van Staveren played bass on “something”.

The wolves on “melt” live in the forests around Squamish, BC and were recorded by Bella Tsefalas.

Mastering handled by Parker Johnson.

pill bottles, hand and mnemonic photographs by Alec van Staveren.

Squamish photograph by Olivia Tsefalas.

drowse photograph by Dani Ransom.

Design and layout by Daniel Schultz.

Here I would like to thank people and things directly involved in the content of soon asleep, Mnemonic and drowse as a project (if we are or have ever been close thank you for being in my life, you know who you are): Parker Johnson (Italics), Alec van Staveren, Kevin Gwozdz (Desert of Hiatus) and Taylor Malsey (Taylor M.) for helping me bring this music to life—my mother, father and sister—Tuesday Faust for your beautiful voice—Daniel Schultz for being intensely supportive and releasing this—Bella Tsefalas—my journal—Victoria Ayers and Cooper Campbell for the video work—Dani Ransom for turning your lens on me—Rachele Mosley—Kristina Esfandiari, Thom Wasluck, Iphigenia Gras, Nicole Colbath and Lane Oliver for convincing me that this project is worth continuing—Olivia Tsefalas for the perfect photograph—Alana Schachtel—Gato Negro—Clonazepam—dreams—Mat Miller for releasing songs to sleep on—Phil Elvrum for casting a shadow—sadness—anything and everybody I have forgotten. Isn’t memory strange?

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